& why?

my previous posts have all been pathetic beyond reason.
so.
you told me you didnt like her anymore.
and told me to tell no one.
but.
i guess it's better off like that.
frustrations emotions and undesired love?
questions unanswered.
who painted the moon black just when you passed me your love back?

so it ends tonight?

i dont know i you know.
i barely even know you.
but it feels like i know you.
every strand on your head,
every word you speak.
every laughter,tear,sweat.
but then listening to you.
it seemed.
hopeless.
you probably have this HER i dont know about.
so i'll see.
see if there ever will be a we in painted rose picture.
and YOU.
stop looking at me like i mean the world to you.
you did this to yourself.
so stopit.
all of it.
you said it yourself,
you have HER.
so why?
why do you insist on me?
when i took so long to get over you?
and then you say youre sorry.
and you want me back.
im the one who should be saying sorrys to you.
because im sorry i bothered knowing such a cheater like you.
and im sorry.
but i'll never turn my back to look at you again.
NEVER.
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it ends.
tonight.

midsummernightdreams.

if it's not you,
then it's YOU.
or maybe even you.
but no matter how many "you's" there are.
there's only one that holds memories.
feeling.
an unspoken bond.
YOU.

and that feeling again.

yesterday.
and i don't know if it's me.
but you seemed like you were trying to get my attention.
but i guess it's just me.
everything's just me.
i see things that aren't there.
i don't know.
you seem like you need somoeone to talk to.
me.
and i don't know how.
i really don't.
but we'll manage.
somehow.
and you again.
why do i keep seeing you?
it's today.
or tomorrow.
it isn't any easier.
but then again.
her.
maybe it's just the many lies that you've made.
i don't know men and what they're thinking.
and your'e just too compplicated for me.
herherherher.
you can't get enough of her can't you.
a stupid old hag you are.
so desperate.
get a better way to get girls to like for god sake.
cos even i can't help you now.
even if i could.
WHY SHOULD I?

paper chase;

paper chase;
just like yesteryear;
it was'nt any different last time;
or now;
or anything else;
my heart;
paper;
burn it;melt it;
let it bleed;
bleed for you;
i don't know anymore;
wether you're just another illusion;
like the rest;
one after another;
just breaking my paper heart;
tearing it into bits;
but i don't care anymore;
there's always glue;
but even glue can't help now;
not even time will;
only you will;
it's you.
and it's my paper heart given to you;
so whatever you do with it;
i love you.
paper chase;
it's chasing hearts now.

torn into two?

every one's asleep and I'm thinking about you.
both of you.
the times we shared.
to YOU.
i thought my love could survive all things.
i could survive you.
but then.
last Thursday,
i wasn't so sure anymore.
any longer.
my life has never been a straight path.
and it proved itself on Thursday.
or when i think about him.
him and her.
my heart just get swerved and then hit.
and then the new you.
i don't know.
I'm torn.
you seem so much better.
but thoughts are just lies really.
you're a fool for a lover.
and it shows itself again and again.
i hate myself.
HELP?

im over you.so over.

AND IT'S STARTING AGAIN.
falling.im falling so hard.falling in love with you.
i don't know.you seem so much better.
my heart knows it's going to repeat.
head over heels in love one second.
the next.
it's over.
how many heartbreaks?how many happy moments?
but you seem so much more perfect.
i don't care.
i love you so.love you so.
love you loveyou.
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