chain reactions-and alot more other thoughts

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,She felt it everyday.And I couldn't help her,I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
it seemed like it was just yesterday that i had known you.
and fell in love with you.
but then i told i myself i couldn't
but in the end
you stole me heart away
why did you have to do that?
i thought you were perfect
all i needed
but one day you just walked away
let me there
so maybe it seem to you that i wasn't good enough
not pretty enough
not smart enough
if you thought so before
why did you bother?
to bother writing letters to me?
making me feel like i was in love
but now i know
all i was in love with
was with an illusion
had i thought we would last?
because all you made me was letting me feel that i couldn't let you go forever
i don't know
i probably let another part of my heart break off again
and I'll give that broken part to you
i remembered that time we met
and i just walked past you like i didn't know you at all
i didn't flinch
i guess i knew you gave up
and my heart just couldn't take anymore
i remembered calling her and making friends with him
chained reactioned-
so i guess this made me stronger
i was so innocent
i thought you were true
you were real
but all you were just a poof of air
here one moment and the next
you're gone with her
i don't care who her is
but i knew the one you loved was her all along
i could tell
but i deceived myself into thinking maybe the one you loved was me
how wrong i was
I'm so glad i gotten over you
and let you go
i knew when we started out
it was gonna end somehow
it went by so fast
and it just ended
like winter snow melting
into spring
I'm gonna find someone else
who's not an illusion
or a fake
but someone who can turn my spring into summer
and autumn
and never winter
it'll be warm forever
never cold never snowing
because that's when i know it's the end
I'm not stupid
I'm just such a foolish lover
and I'm still waiting for that day
when I'll see you
I'll keep waiting
P.s. I love you
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.Be strong, be strong now.Too many, too many problems.Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.She wants to go home, but nobody's home.It's where she lies, broken inside.With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.Broken inside.